got rid of gollum! gave up, threw in the towel and turned my life upside down.  now i realize how much of a demon i was wrestling with, a little distance can be shocking.Was this my ego getting off on self sacrifice and 'helping' a poor soul? Was i so blinded by ' i am helping this poor guy' that i could not see the truth? Was he just a pathetic distortion of my own ego? By 'fixing' him, did I think I was fixing myself?  If I sacraficed and gave up 'enough', would i be rewarded? Did I, in fact, break my own heart?  Lol! yes

These experiences are really not about the other person, it is about ourselves. Apparently my ego was getting off on something or i would not have allowed it



image: gollum/ lord of the rings
Listen for a scratchy voice with a slight hiss

thank you for

Throat chakra Ruled by Venus Physical Location - throat Purposes - learning to take responsibility for one's own needs When it is open, negative experience is transformed into wisdom and learning. Spiritual Lesson - surrender, faith, Pure consciousness, and creativity, it governs expression

 

'NO!' 
humanity's most common response is, no...an out of balance third chakra response creates a third chakra world of  power, will and control. 

signs of imbalance:  
    Poor ability to make decisions or judge a situation accurately
    A feeling that you are more important than other people    
    Difficulty concentrating 
    Rage
   Sensitivity to criticism, low self-esteem, uncontrolled passions (anger, fear, lust), anxiety and depression

......the fourth chakra of compassion and 'yes',  is the future...assuming we have a future.....

signs of heart (fourth) chakra  consiousness: zaadz, wie, media, BofA green bldg in NY and many others, and most humans.....the more we feed the heart consciousness the more it will grow

If a bodhisattva is completely selfless, a completely open person, then he will act according to openness, will not have to follow rules; he will simply fall into patterns. It is impossible for the bodhisattva to destroy or harm other people, because he embodies transcendental generosity. He has opened himself completely and so does not discriminate between this and that. He just acts in accordance with what is.... [H]is mind is so precise, so accurate that he never makes mistakes.  He never runs into unexpected problems, never creates chaos in a destructive way

chogyam tryngpa rinpoche



fighting for peace is like  fucking for virginity
-anon

blue

part of dakini land painting from 2005.....far left dakini is my zaadz icon

focus on the lower right of the painting....as movement to  the left is noticed gently move your gaze toward the movement...............is the painting moving, or is it your mind?

focus on one corner and the other corner will begin to move....change your gaze to the movement and it will become still, while the formerly still areas begin to shudder, ever so slightly....the longer you stay in this space the more you will see

the image is not animated.  it is our minds that animate the image....

for some it will take a little practice.  but once you 'see' it, you will always be able to find it